TO EMBODY MY HIGHEST POTENTIALITY, TO WALK THE DREAM OF MY SOUL, TO PROTECT THE WILD, TO CREATE A HARMONIC BRIDGE BETWEEN HUMAN HEARTS & THE SOUL OF NATURE.
The Invisible world is important because:
It all boils down to Dark Matter + Hamlet for me. What we experience in our bodies as the known world including (according to Nasa) “everything on Earth, everything ever observed with all of our instruments, all normal matter - adds up to less than 5% of the Universe.” All else is dark matter and dark energy. The Unknown, the Mystery of invisible force so feared and mis-understood by humankind is actually a larger part of our daily lives than our perceived empiric reality. In other words Shakespeare nailed it when he said, “There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy.”
So many are born with a natural psychic ability and facility for working with energy, but it is pretty rare to see someone your age with such dedication to developing the gift with discipline. I think a lot of natural psychics are so unaware of what they are doing that their gifts are actually injuring them. Can you speak to the benefit of choosing to formally train?
My experiences have proven to me beyond a doubt that all living things carry forms of sentience and the ability to communicate. It is clear to me that we all come into this life with specialized gifts, lessons, and paths available to actualize those gifts and lessons. To me it comes down to being at-cause or at-effect with what you’ve been given. My first psychic experiences were straight up terrifying so I understand why a great many people make the choice to close that door. In my personal experience no matter how many times I tried to close the door to the supernatural it kept flinging itself back open. So it was clear I did not have a choice to shut it down and the more I tried to do so the more it seemed to escalate. It was like sitting on top of a geyser and trying to ignore that you know it could go off at any minute. That stress lead me to illness, self-doubt, and unnecessary self alienation for many years. I realized that once I stopped running and met the fear head on ~ waves of beauty, healing, and empowerment became possible. I was pushed to the brink of my understanding of sanity many times, but when I let go of the concept of normalcy, or even my egoic idea of who I thought I was cruising around in life ~ I realized that the meta-physical world was offering me support the entire time, but in order to access it I had to set up boundaries. I had to firmly establish what I was and was not willing to experience. That was my first and most pivotal lesson. Otherwise I was a moving target of sorts. If you don’t identify your alignments, what you stand for, and what you serve on a soul level than you are basically putting a sign on your head that says “come on in - anything goes.” You wouldn’t walk into Times Square naked, offering your body to every thing that passed your way ~ you would clothe and protect yourself according to the environment using discernment at all times for the appropriate use of your time, space, & resources. Anything less is in fact dangerous. For me the choice to train was about releasing the cycle of fear, depression, and illness that was symptomatic of not embracing my gifts. It was also about stepping out of the ego-trap of specialness or righteousness. I was ready to claim my gifts and my truest self in the arc of transformation and responsibility that comes with them. I could no longer stand at the gateway of this mystery knowing that if I never passed through it I would willingly forfeit it’s ability to heal, help, and empower me.
I like to teach that acute illness can be cured, but chronic illness is always an invitation to radically alter your path in life, your basic identity or way of being in the world, but I am coming to believe that chronic illness is usually an invitation to accept the reality of magic. Can you describe how you came to drop your skepticism and admit that magic is real?
What an amazing point! I wholeheartedly agree. The mind, body, heart, & soul connection is what magic is all about.
I have seen & experienced unbelievable, Harry Potter-style “magical” spectacles in real time from the natural world so many times over that I no longer question their validity. They still surprise and inspire me every time, but I do not question their “reality” or ability to teach me. As a young adult, It took several rounds of spontaneous, completely unbidden super-natural events with both the physical and non-physical worlds before I realized that much of what we would call mythic or folkloric tales of magic where based on very real events that I was experiencing first hand with out any prior study, preparation, or remote idea of their possibility. I grew up in central and west Texas in a conservative, religious environment that widely condemned such things as wrong or outright evil. I will say I am very lucky to have a loving, intelligent, and open-hearted Mother who is very spiritual, but never scolded me when I shared things with her that were outside of acceptable tenants of religion. She has always been supportive of my spiritual development, even as my journey lead me to question the role of religion entirely. I also loved earth science growing up and prided myself on my logic and intelligence as a kid. I had no access to meta-physical, magical, or new-age concepts of alternate realities. So my biggest hurdles in the beginning of my adult explorations were really internal, stemming from early environmental programming and dependence on my logic and ego to define my world. My skepticism faded as the frequency and magnitude of supernatural events increased throughout my twenties. At one point I was told very clearly, “we will get your attention one way or another.” And they certainly did.
How long have you been offering your Animal Totem readings?
I began offering Animal Totem readings in 2007-2008 in the wake of several psychic openings where animals came forward very strongly as allies and teachers at a critical time in my life. I was very shy in the beginning and felt a deep responsibility to be sure my readings were a true honoring of the magic of the animals. I started by giving Lifetime readings to my closest friends, which lead to recommendations to friends of friends, and then a steady stream of people who I had never met - many of whom have become friends since then. As I began reading strangers the psychic aspect of the readings augmented and really started to show itself. Eventually over the last few years, I began to realize that the cards were training me to not need them, to expand my concept of what was happening in the readings. Now I work with the deck in a very different way and understand that the cards are present in support of the psychic exchange of the moment. The animals take the messages of the non physical world and ground them. They are living bridges; giving an enormous amount of visceral strength to the wisdom of the unseen world so present in your daily earth walk. They remind us to to see through their eyes.
Can you describe for new comers what you mean by Animal Totems, and how we might recognize their presence in our lives? Are you willing to share with us one of your Totems and how you experience the energy?
In the Native American wisdom tradition “medicine” is defined as a way of healing mind, body, and spirit by bringing balance through connection with Nature. Animals are respected as potent wisdom keepers and each creature becomes a living symbol of specific lessons and guidance offered freely as a gift to those who are willing to listen. Totems are symbols of power, sigils that stand for the invitation to touch our potential, self-authority, our authenticity as mirrored through Nature itself as guide, guardian, Goddess and God. By Nature I am acknowledging the elemental, mineral, plant, and animal worlds.
One of my personal totems is Black Panther. The first lifetime spread I ever did was my own and when Panther appeared in the North for me I was completely perplexed. I initially viewed the entire deck superficially in a way as anecdotal. I was in a deep phase of addictive spiritual seeking at the time and knew I needed to heal myself, but my will was still quite weakened from personal trauma. I liked the idea of self-mastery and I was disciplined about showing up for the work, but some part of myself still expected the miracle to appear outside of myself. As if the cards could do the work for me. But then Panther began to enter my dreams and work with me very directly, showing me multiple previously unrecognized parts of my true nature. She made it abundantly clear that I was operating from a safe distance with my fears and every time she visited it was a seismic psychic event. Imagine how you would feel if you woke up with a Black Panther in your bedroom... needless to say she taught me very quickly to respect her boundaries and locate my own. She was not here to be cute, or cuddly, or to comfort me. She unleashed a ferocity for the truth in the dark, she woke up the huntress in every cell of my being that gave me the will to survive at my lowest. She still walks me through my fears on a deeper and deeper level each time she visits me in vision. Black Panther is akin to Kali to me in many ways and when she appears it is usually to give me a strong push forward to reclaim my power and embrace what is ready to die in my life. For the last four years, every time I am not doing what I know I am guided to do, she comes and chases me. Each time she appears larger than life ( by that I mean dinosaur sized!) making her appearances and messages unmistakeable.
You are also an accomplished actor. For those of us who don’t live in LA and are not used to a place that hosts a whole network of industries in service to moviemaking, it can seem a little overwhelming to navigate from a place of authenticity, yet you seem to do just that. How would you describe the high vibrational aspects of the actor archetype- the true essence of what The Actor is all about?
While I would not call myself an accomplished actor, I can say that I have studied, trained, and sacrificed a great deal of security in life to dedicate myself to the craft of acting. I love filmmaking, storytelling, and great acting. Hollywood itself is a complex beast and I have faced a great many choices around career, integrity, and maintaining self-respect in my 14 years of living in LA. This city has been simultaneously an great nurturer and testing ground for my spirit. I have been very lucky in that I was first introduced to LA through the art world and spent my first 4 years immersed in performance art, sculpture, and photography studies at Art Center. So by the time I made the leap to formally pursuing an acting career I had a very different perception of the city and what I was there to accomplish than most actors who come to this town and only know it through the lens of Hollywood and pursuit of celebrity. There are innumerable phantasmagoric peaks, valleys, secret nooks, waving fields of dreams all wrapped up in every shade of the spectrum of light from the unseen ultraviolet to a velvety pitch black in this town. It is Beautiful.
For me, the Actor in it’s highest archetypal form is a mirror or cathartic lens through which we touch the truth, magic, and potential of the human heart. Storytelling is our bridge to the collective dream, to our ability to harness imagination. The healing reflection of the actor is truth and no other discipline has opened me to the intrinsic Beauty of the communion of body and soul like the roller coaster of acting.
Have you had any good dreams lately? I am in one right now.
There is so much enthusiasm for your work right now- what can we look forward to seeing in the next few months?
I am blown away by the opportunities to share my work right now! It is the fulfillment of countless dreams and the conclusion of running a great many gauntlets. I am excited to see my new article for Tidal magazine out this fall. It’s an exploration of the idea of re-entering natural law through the lens of the Medicine Wheel called Falling Through Time. I also recently finished a short film called Needles with David Formentin that I am proud to have been a part of. For House of the Standing Moon, I have a number of new reading modalities, healing collaborations for my project called Creature Being, and Totem Tours to new cities lined up for announcement in the Spring.
Jane Anne will be joining us here at Dragon Bridge Temple in San Diego, CA this weekend (November 22nd and 23rd) for two days of private ceremonial Animal Totem Readings. Follow Jane Anne's offerings at www.standingmoon.com